“Nowadays, anyone who wishes to combat lies and ignorance and to write the truth must overcome at least five difficulties. He must have the courage to write the truth when truth is everywhere opposed; the keenness to recognize it, although it is everywhere concealed; the skill to manipulate it as a weapon; the judgment to select those in whose hands it will be effective; and the running to spread the truth among such persons.”
In my widest fantasy I couldn’t imagine that my biography will also include these lines but this does not mean that I am not going through bitterness of these lines sober, honest and faithful to my upbringing, personal philosophy and to consequences of my practice of life in general, as usual. It also does not mean that what happened to me is a wonder. It is not.
It is a picture of a very complex and messy society in these speedy days, and some past days, I guess.
The wider fantasy the better understanding.
Many of you have been sitting in your office spending eight or ten hours daily at work, or been working some other jobs but I have practiced the yogic techniques daily the same hours or more for years and, as you suppose I have gained huge experience on it, the same as you did doing your work. It is normal. This experience I am sharing with people for years.
In the past years I did not have much luck to find the right place where I will teach the things I live and love. After undercooled and moldy places that I have rented for the past years, I have been over happy when at the end of 2014 I found a cozy, warm and overall calm place for all those who were willing to exercise powerful yogic breathing techniques and body postures, as well as listen about the science of Yoga. The place where I can warmly welcome all people, no matter what nationality, profession, colors or label of pants, numbers of bank accounts, children, or cars. This place is a public place, we have no secrets, and everyone can see us (just a few weeks ago we have been photographed in a body posture called Dog where my buttocks was showing toward the camera, though). People coming to this place are kind of holly to me because they want to work on themselves in different ways and because they show me their trust which in these days almost died out. Trust is the base for love, which is the purpose of life. Without love we are definitely and finally dead.
These people are a real gift for my heart and breath for many years and I have protected them in many ways as good as I could.
This is the main reason why you are reading these lines right now.
Seven months I have been patient, calm and I was teaching the best I could in pretty exhaustive conditions.
But time, as a split between two endpoints, has shown that neither place nor people behind its facade are nice as their exterior is.
“WHY BE A MAN WHEN YOU CAN BE A SUCCES”
– Bertold Brecht
Wanted to teach Yoga I messed up namely with part of society called elite, in this case with the successful businessmen who are running a couple of companies and organizations that left behind some historical character known by doing some good stuff for one part of society but also wearing the uniform of the SS being active in time of Hitler Youth. Some of the origins of this historical character were saying that East Europeans are not humans but animals. The elite even has own page in the WIKIPEDIA. They also had a profile message telling us that everything has its time.
Even though, many times up to now, I have been forced to declare myself of which nationality I am, whether by those who are working on “human destinies” on the paper or by others, this writing is NOT about THEY and WE. This separation is what makes people the robotic-like walking dead. My diapason reaches much beyond diapason of a walking dead.
But the people I messed up with do make a distinction between PEOPLE and out of this reason I will put them in fat cursive because they are big and heavy people.
This story is written from my personal experience and no one can nullify or judge in how many languages and where I will write about because experience cannot fade away, in contrary, it can create greater challenge and courage, strength of heart and mental capacity to live.
They, Herr XX and Frau XY.
Wanted to set up one of the rooms for Thai Massage and Foot Reflexology which I am trained in, I faced a humidity in the walls.
I have contacted the owners.
– they have no time right now, they will contact me later.
– me: OK, but to let you know that the room has a lack which has a consequence on the health of my students and my teaching.
A professional and responsible investigation of the walls done by the professional and responsible craftsman. The humidity detector shows 154 digits.
– me: my knowledge and insight in several sciences and over all my unrestrained conscience demands, asks and desires renovation of the walls as fast as possible.
– they: pick the dehumidifier up and do not switch it off.
– me: I will of course use the dehumidifier but the dehumidifier will not solve the crux of the problem. It is about danger for the lungs, heart and nervous system of PEOPLE. Please, contact me, some questions are waiting to be answered.
– they: will gladly talk about it but later, now they are on holiday.
– me: OK, but it has been three weeks since I am waiting. The room is out of use. It is dangerous and concerns the health of my students, as well my financial existence.
A talk by phone.
– they: why don’t you close the door of the room (read: hide the reality from the others) or simply paint the wall and continue to work in the room?
– they came to see the wall personally (two months later).
To arrange time for this appointment took a lot of energy from me because it has been very hard for the ego of XX to accept that to meet in a room when my students are inside is simply not possible.
Their notice: the cause for the lack is me because I don’t ventilate and heat the school properly. And I also used a fat paint.
– my appeal and cry to recognize me and all of us as human beings: ignored.
I wrote a long letter explaining my origin in short, my feeling of being a villain in front of all those who are coming to my school to exercise yogic breathing and body techniques, as well my opinion.
– reaction: ignored.
Only the profile message telling that everything has its time was gone immediately after I wrote the letter. Indeed.
Otherwise no change. Whatsoever.
they will release their current house management and let me know when the new one comes.
“When someone shows you who they really are, believe them the first time.”
– a meeting, a very special one, indeed. Conversation not possible, only a monologue.
Loads of humiliation, giving blame, manipulation, belittling, minimizations.
I have never ever seen such frozen jaw and never felt such ice-cold eyes that spread such hate before. I have never experienced such coldness and manipulation. The point finger was directed to me (but the four other fingers to the heart of them). There is no dialog, only a monologue. No one has any right to say anything. Well, it is of course just a seemingly thing because I never guarantee my silence, either.
The only gesture came from this person that might seem like a feeling was the question do I feel well in the rented space. As usual, I was not given time to fully answer and to express myself, instead I was kindly offered to leave if I do not feel well. The fingers of this speaking person were showing to the entrance door of this little jet serious Hatha Yoga School I run. All fingers were showing in one direction this time.
With help of my spirit (call it mentality if you want), upbringing and unrestrained conscience I jet manage to express some of my feelings and thoughts. I have been warned to stop, otherwise their lawyer will have some more cases to work on.
What amazed me most is, what a thrive it must be in you when you are shaking my hands after you turned your back to my face several times and watched me with most possible hatred treating me like a rat?
– assumption, some investigations, all in all, hours of pointless work that took hours of my precious time and energy away and brought loads of uncertainty in my and the life of others.
Since then we have got many written and spoken lies and blame. One of the ideas for the blame was that I am teaching breathing exercises in this space and this is how the space became humid. Not written indeed but spoken.
The question came from the right person for once: who, actually had the idea to make an office out of this basement and to rent it to whom: PEOPLE.
DOES IT CALL A PROGRESS OF A MANKIND?
Many lies and lacks came up which need to be checked out…
MENSCHEN, MY FRIENDS, NOT UNTER-MENSCHEN!
Evil always goes in pair.
A ruthless behavior of a land-lord of the flat I am living in who prohibited me to write emails on the weekend and other things, were, in contrast to this case where I am running a public place where I am dedicated teaching Yoga, humiliating but easy to fix. I have been reading the famous German book of Civil Code, a so called BGB, a book about citizen rights which was copied all over the world because of its “correctness and deepness” as the world says, for months. But there is no solution in the book for the late case. The judge is the only one who will decide who will be the winner and looser. And of course, if the judge is of the same political party as the famous political clients sitting in front of him, you little one and your right to teach breathing techniques in a room free of humidity are gone.
As one EX Yugoslavia’s singer said, in earlier times, the psychopaths were living at a clinic today they are running complete countries.
Many people like to come to my classes because they feel my serenity and calmness, many said and I felt. When you are born as a tween under the star of natural unity, brought up not to make a difference between people and when you have open hands and heart, it is very hard to stay calm and serene being part of dirty games played by those who are at any price blowing up one’s own profit disregarding others.
The past several months brought many sleepless and restless nights to me because I was powerless to show the truth, to fight against huge manipulations and lies simultaneously preparing my high respected students and myself that we will soon stay without this space and our classes. There is a huge responsibility in all this.
The first days of the game I still believed that I and my responsibility will be taken for serious. This happened a few months later when the society of tenants rights wrote a letter. “It is not true, I just wanted to contact you!”. This kind of treating is really very exhaustive. In the past months I haven’t been a dedicated teacher to my students like I was all these years. Once I even collapsed in front of them (yes, me).
Since the first day of this game till Christmas 2016 I had no free day and weekend because I was enslaved by emptying the dehumidifier which was filled up in only one night, every single day because if I did not, the mold would grow in a minute, in a space where I am teaching very strong and powerful breathing exercises while the triumph of the society very diligently was informing me about their holidays. They were twitted about me back then just like they are twitting about me now reading this lines.
The idea that my students are guilty because they are breathing in this space and all these games which bounced me up and down, and the reaction of my ineradicable conscience (call me ” shitty emotional Ausländer” if you are unable to find a better word, I already forgave you long time ago because I don’t know for other life), at one point have paralyzed one side of the brain and one arm (yes, mine).
By the way,
MY MESSAGE TO ALL THOSE TELLING ME TO GO BACK WHERE I CAME FROM
Thanks for the tip but I have some more clever things to do right here and right now.
Even though I have had protection and support by the society for the tenant rights I was alone in this game as emotional human all past months. This society as well as everyone else who does not work for (a new expression is “with” them, untrue) them, has been offended by their tongues, jaws and eyes.
They negated their spoken words. Their deputies kept working second-hand work and hiding the truth. And, by good luck of my students therewith mine, we are somehow still together.
But, my most personal wish is to stay far away from these games and their bad energies as soon as possible and to continue to serve humanity the best I can, here or there. Well, if I don’t do that then my mother and father died for nothing. In the German society, which is mostly a systems of cold formalities and rules, it would only be possible in the case of my death, so says the paragraph and people are paragraphs these days.
However, there are always kinds of free-style variations, rarely happen but happen. How imprisoned I will be in this game it only depends how often these people and their deputies will press the “repeat!” button and exercise their skills whether inherited or not.
They will continue to lie and manipulate more and better and I will keep telling the truth and teaching more and better. Malice has always been a very fruitful challenge to the power of goodness.
NOW, WHY I AM WRITING THESE LINES?
Because THINKING IS ALLOWED
Because it is about survival strategies, mine, yours, of your children and the future of the entire World which in its deepest interior craves to live in peace. We are all part of the World even the walking dead are part of the World but they are a bit different because they are the walking dead. When there is no respect and love between us, we are completely and finally dead. So dead that neither Earth nor Heaven notice our walk.
People who only see the facade of their castles of course dont want to know about the sensibility of the bricks. They/they will celebrate Jesus but trample on the efforts and humiliate hands of builders. Germany is two classes society: those who shine but does not make their hands dirty, another who thinks, makes, and moves, indeed being more and more exhausted by the power of the shiny ones.
People are still silent, the better place at work, more polished flats, marriages or cars they have, the more they are silent.
Collective depression, anxiety, sorrow and discontentment are still under control, but it will not take too long before these emotions will reach the maximal point.
Even though still in fragments, each country on the World is in this moment facing the inside War and, as everything is interlaced always and ever, each country of the world is involved in Word War 3, still in fragments indeed. But even the masters of the programing are losing their control of the still tiny fragments slowly but surely and we will not have to wait for long when the quietness of the masses explodes.
“Any intelligent fool can make things bigger, more complex, and more violent. It takes a touch of genius — and a lot of courage — to move in the opposite direction.”
Think, humans, and react! Thinking is allowed.
So, if these people, drunk with authority, what ever authority may mean, are exercising lies, manipulation, and selfishness every day sitting in their castles or offices same numbers of hours as you or me are doing our work, I am thinking about this kind of Germany asking myself, Quo Vadis Germany, and whom you are going to follow to?
FREEDOM OF SPEECH?
There is no such thing in Germany these days and people like me who are coming from so-called Second World, because of the sorrow they have experienced in their World, can see the so-called First World with much more opened eyes then the citizens of the First World.
In Germany, expression of feelings and thoughts are kept under very good control. There are many reasons for this but in this place I will not be occupied with the nature of this even though I have been thinking about this extremely interesting appearances for years because I see it as a big phenomena which exist in no other country in the World. In Germany, hence, the acting has to be soft in order not to injure feelings of others. Many times, if not always you have to be very polite and formal – because the language is very polite and formal – saying the things that you don’t really feel and think. I am very happy to speak this language, it is of course a treasure to speak several languages, but what I am saying is told by my feeling, experience and the reaction of my brain on this language. What is considered as normal communication in every other society except maybe in Japan, in Germany it is considered as insulting. You have to be very careful what you are saying because behind every spoken word, could come a punishment because Germany is jet a rule-system. And if one knows only living in a paragraph-system, living under threat and punishment, one will maybe feel oneself “sure and secure” but the control and threat will be the way that people are treated among themselves in everyday life not even noticing it because it became a pattern in the brain. That makes me so sad. Holding back of emotions and expression is very often the reason why most of the population have problems with thyroid gland because the thyroid gland is situated between reason and emotions, it is connected with the expression and the expression needs its space. If the speech and expressions are steadily kept under whether inside or outside control it is normal that the thyroid gland will suffer. This of course does not mean that those who are controlling the mind and the way of expressions of others are perfectly healthy.
The more material goods (not to be confused with spiritual or soul goods which are for these unachievable) people posses, the more power and threats they use. My persistently telling that the place I have rented is not a place for torturing human beings but a place where human beings learn to expand the capacity of their lungs, life forces, heart and mind almost brought me to court.
“Wer die Wahrheit nicht weiß, der ist bloß ein Dummkopf. Aber wer sie weiß und sie eine Lüge nennt, der ist ein Verbrecher.”
“A man who doesn’t know the truth is just a fool, but a man who knows the truth and calls it a lie is a villain.”
Well, Bertold Brecht said this in the first half of the 20. Century.
I expressed myself in the same manner some weeks ago, in the same country in 21. century and I have been forewarned to shut up because I could end up at court.
So, gentlemen, so-called elite, I am a citizen of humanity. Should I excuse myself for that?
YOU BELIEVE IN COURTS?
Then you have one utopian belief more.
There are neither emotions nor reason in the world of court and law. The judge also lives in another World and he also does not want to know about the builder of the facade, as a dear being said, by profession a jurist.
Reason, brothers and sisters, guided by the natural cosmic laws is the only court.
If I say reason I really mean Reason not illusion or imagination of lower minds whether controlled or the mind of those who sit in a well padded controlling chair giving a command.
Poor society is the one governs by the ruling system and not by the reason. Remember, logic is not reason. What will be logical for one box behind the two eyes will not be logical for the other box behind other two eyes. The open mind counts, only. Open mind means open heart.
Avoid coming to the courts and law by using reason, given only to the humans.
“The only truth that gets through will be what we force through: the victory of reason will be the victory of people who are prepared to reason, nothing else.”
ACTUALLY, THERE IS A SLIGHTLY DIFFERENCE BETWEEN US
The difference is that I am simply talented to learn from every single nation what I never want to be when I grow up, and talented to live the best of each and every nation.
Another difference that I am aware of my mistakes and my prison and they are not.
My prison will end when my contract ends, but the advanced prisoners will stay imprisoned.
When my contract ends I will be free to build my castle made of beauties, because I am just a beginner prisoner. If you know to build the castle of beauties you are not a prisoner.
When my contract ends, they will continue to build much bigger castles made of ashes, because they are advanced prisoners. The time maybe works for them by getting the rent, but brings other accounts which have to be fixed.
However, I call the difference “slightly” because the opportunity for uploads of consciousness are endless these days. That’s why. Miracles happen.
“SOMETIMES IT IS MORE IMPORTANT TO BE HUMAN, THAN TO HAVE GOOD TASTE”
I am writing this text after seven months asking for the right to teach Yoga in human conditions, on the threshold of the seventh year of teaching experience.
So, lets us imagine that the children of them in seven years time become LAWYERS, for instance.
Which kind of law they will apply to? And to whom?
Whom they will learn from?
And who is going to show them the road and to give them the right walking shoes for the path? And which side of the path they should take?
Who is going to tell them that they should take of the heavy boots, because collective depression, anxiety, sorrow and discontentment are still under control, but it will not take too long before these emotions will reach the maximal point?
Who is going to teach them to see the things as they really are and to talk the truth?
Who is going to tell them that the facade is a mask shown in the society and if they have nothing to offer from inside they will remain only a mask.
Who is going to tell them that a WC seat with soft closing mechanism is neither beauty nor a basic value but just a new mechanism that gets rid of same old needlessness just softer?
Who is going to tell them that they are much more than the sum of the total of their material possessions?
Who is going to teach them to treat all people equally well, not just the selected ones?
These children will never learn what freedom, basic values, wealth and equality is.
Will they know what safety really means?
And these children are your future chefs.
Maybe we all came from the same tree but we didn’t eat the same fruits.
Brothers and sisters, If hypocritical human code continues, there will be no change in human consciousness given only to humans, indeed.
Think about your digestion, humans.
“The real problem is in the hearts and minds of men. It is easier to denature plutonium than to denature the evil spirit of man.”
I hope you understand now why Being Treated Like Untermensch makes me tired indeed but why it is not the only problem.
WALLS, ASHES, THE ESSENCE
Those walls are walls, the forms made of concrete, a stuff composed of water, sand, cement and gravel. Today they are walls tomorrow they could be ash. Ashes or walls, they have been there long before I came to get them known, or before they came into their possession. No one will take those walls with. The only thing what will stay after us is the essence. The only thing what counts when we leave is the essence. Always and forever.
Even though more people today are going to Yoga classes with the towel on their neck than without, the essence was and always be what many of Yogas talk about. About the essential values. But, in these days when brain washing in many fields is taking over rapidly and very successfully and when poor Yoga is rapidly approaching the final point of time of degenerated Yogis, this kind of teachings on Yoga has no place. I am somehow sure that the time will come again when people like me who are talking and teaching about the essence and about all what humans makes wonderful beings, will have to do it secretly. Because maybe the ethics grow but the sanity of human goals and values is sinking rapidly. It’s a mess.
They also have been somewhere taking the Yoga class. Just saying.
MY PERSONAL MESSAGE TO ALL CHILDREN OF THEM, ALL OVER THE WORLD
Dear children, whether indigo, made of porcelain or growing up wearing pink glasses on the eyes, never forget the purpose why you came to the Earth as a human. Inside of you there is a column it is called a spinal column and this column has two ends, one in the Brain and another is the lower part of human existence. Give all your life to move your consciousness from the animal level up to the highest human level. The guide is your heart, keep it clean. Open your thinking. Everything is possible.
Be good and do good. It is all only your personal effort.
Some day your parents will die like me or people around you and no one will take castles or walls with. The only what remains are deeds of your parents, and your upbringing. Benevolence is a privilege given to the humans, never forget this.
Insert all your effort to see the things as they really are, even if you are growing up between the two-conic-boxwoods-on-the-side-one-round-in-the-middle-mentallity.
Living located at a huge distance from others and the reality it will bring you very far away from human race. Insert all effort to learn to treat all people equally. Otherwise you will stay social isolated in your cocoon and be very lonely. Your money can’t heal your loneliness.
The far off the malice, hate and abasement is from you, the more beauty is in you.
It is never too late to catch the missing points in life because all illusions including money will someday fade away. Even the cocoon of Großmannssucht is just a form which will someday fade away. Großmannssucht is a German expression for craving for status.
Only beauty remains.
Experience cannot fade away, in contrary, it can create greater challenge and courage, strength of heart and mental capacity to live.
Practice benevolence, brothers and sisters, not malice.
Thanks for reading.
Bye, I’m going now to finish up a new passepartout.
In truth and respect,
Master of Arts.
Immune on remote control, hence master of all tools.